Why Now, God?
Dear Friends, While trying to come to terms with the diagnosis that I was suffering with M.E I can remember asking God "Why now?" Why now when I'm in the early years of marriage to Jason and we are still adjusting to the relationship, why now when I'm busy with church activities, why now when, in my 20s, I should be fit and healthy and able to go out to work and make a financial contribution to our marriage. Now is just not a good time to have to deal with a long term illness. I didn't realise it at the time but what I was actually saying to God was: "You know what, you've got it wrong, I shouldn't be ill now, you've made a mistake and I'm going to tell you why you're wrong." I thought I knew what was best for my life, surely I knew better than God what I needed and when I needed it. I had forgotten that God is my Creator and I am his created one, that he is the potter and I am the clay. " And yet, O Lord , you are our F