A Recovering Perfectionist
Dear Friends, I've been a perfectionist for as long as I can remember. I used to think it was a good characteristic to have until God showed me differently. But I'm getting ahead of myself. Although I wasn't really aware at the time, I had made life all about being perfect in everything I did and this put a tremendous pressure on me. I hasten to add at this point that this pressure wasn't from anyone else but myself. So I was constantly pushing myself hard at school to achieve, then again when I was at university studying to be a teacher, and being very hard on myself when I didn't do as well as I thought I should at teaching practices. As a wife and later a mother I again strove for perfection and was so critical and judgemental of myself. I had a strict routine which I "had" to follow, so for example, Mondays were the days I had to clean my home from top to bottom, and I had set days for washing dark clothes and light clothes....